I was in a space where I was dying, both, physically and emotionally.
With very little awareness, that I was dying.
I simply did not know who I am, who I was.
I totally lost myself in caretaker addiction: caring about others, totally forgetting myself.
I was stressed beyond the measure, running on constant fight and flight response, taking care of my kids and husband.
Just a constant struggle, in constant survival mode…
I had no clue about who I was:
I was unhappy. Scared, reactive and an angry ass all the time.
And the most important thing?
It all was hidden behind the sweet mask of ‘I am fine’… ~
My journey began when one day I crashed –
I just hit a wall of the how much bs I could take…
Nice kind and loving people tend to attract takers and abusers…
Loving heart ❤️…
that loves no matter what, compensates any and all abuse –
By increasing love compassion and care —
I was like a mother- attending to crying wounded kids:
Love ❤️ them more- love is the healer, love is the answer…
But, by constantly taking care of others,
I had abandoned me.
My physical body started collapsing under the weight of the darkness. I was constantly compensating with my love 😍
I crashed.
And those people who I loved? Threw me onto the street and left me behind – to die- bleeding and screaming in pain.
I figured out: I had never had a family or loved ones… Just bunch of takers and users…
I deeply sank onto the Dark Night of the Soul…
I was robbed and raped of my magical energy of love…
It was very hard to face…
Those people pretending to be my family and friends…
They were using each other, blindly- they simply did not know how to love ❤️…
Wounded kids hurting each other, in a darkness of negligence and fears…
The truth is:
we can not really start on a journey of healing and awakening…
Without crashing first.
And then activating the inner tool box of emotional intelligence.
In order to open the darkness, the rabbit hole, the hole, where we have been dumping and suppressing our demons, our pain and darkness… our hurts and our wounds.
We gotta learn how to deal with them, when they are out,,,
How to receive them – face them
and empower to
healing ourselves…
It is not 3 h workshop – it is not a book you read-
It is about changing the way you live your life-
It is about how to deal with situations, your triggers, your shadows and pain –
On daily basis.
Stop 🛑 emotional wounding of your inner child- right here right now.
And start transcending the damages that were done before…
It is deep inner work of becoming emotionally intelligent and able to deal with everything right here right now- instead of collapsing and running away.
Face it all, deal with it
On the spot.
Stop dumping things off into the hole.
It is about how to stop any more wounding and pain-
And come back to LOVE ❤️
To peace and happiness …
Balancing your life and start creating, creating nothing but real long lasting love ❤️
